Run, Lola, Run!!

Everyone has their FIRST dissappointment in life.......right?  Well I was one hella spoiled little girl! I'll be the first to admit that!! "Only child" syndrome had not been invented yet but trust me had it been my picture would be right beside that one!! lol  I'm thinkin that to have waited 6 years to experience something that would make me snap outta my perfect world was extrodinary.....or to recollect it now kind of makes a tear come to my eye!  It was the first time in my little life that I realized, really realized that I was FAT!

I had kids in school that made fun of me but my grammas had instilled so much confidence in my little world that I just blew them off.......I laughed at them and pissed them off!! After all, all I had to do was run to the Monsignor and tattle!! And to think I thought he was protective of me......ha, he was protecting the church's bank account!! It's okay though cause it made me feel very protected!! A false sense of security indeed!

Every afternoon I would have a snack after school waiting for me!! My town gramma was a great baker.....and she made Portuguese breads all the time!! I would take my snack and sit in front of the TV to watch The Sherriff Ken Show........it was a kiddie show that had an actual cowboy master of ceremonies......(OMG! I just googled him......lol and he died in 1999! I found his actual obit....wow now if that dont' stir up some stuff!! lol)  Anyways, Sheriff Ken ran a contest and I got so excited and told my gramma she had to help me enter!! Well my country gramma helped me cause remember, town gramma does not read or write! Anyways, I watched it religiously after school everyday before I did homework!  He would show the prize everyday.......a saddle TV seat! I wanted it so bad and I talked about it everyday

Finally the day came for the drawing..........and he called my name!!!  I remember how excited I was and my gramma told me she would take me to the tv channel the next day right after school! The next day filled with anticipation was almost more than I could stand........but a lot of the kids at school already knew I had won the chair.......so that made it even better!!  After school I usually took the city bus home but that day my gramma picked me up in that big ole car and I was actually glad to climb into the back seat for a change!! No arguments!! .......let get this show on the road!!  At the station I met Sherriff Ken and had my picture taken with him and then he brought the tv chair out........on tv it looked much bigger!!!

My heart sank as I stood beside it.......hell I knew I couldn't even lift my little fat leg that high!!  I said thank you and my gramma and I left the studio.  We put it in the back seat with me and for the first time ever.........I had nothing to say the entire ride home!! I sat there silently with tears streaming down my cheeks and even though I didn't think my gramma was that smart, today I realize she did know what I was going through!!

I had a Raggedy Ann doll that her neice had made for me.  It sat on my bed and I was not allowed to carry it around or God forbid, take it outside!!! lol As we pulled into the driveway she said to me...."Know what we can do with your prize?".......I answered "No".........she said,"c'mon and I'll show you"!  We climbed the stairs to the bedrooms and the TV room......My gramma was old but she was tough.....she carried that saddle chair upstairs by herself.  We got up stairs and still I had nothing to say or to get excited about.  She put the saddle chair in front of the tv where I sat everyday and she left the room.......I just stood there pissed off!! When she returned she had Raggedy Ann!!! She told me, "well now Raggedy Ann can watch TV with you.......do you like that? Look she fits on it perfect!!"  OMG......my world was fixed!!

My gramma went to get my snack........I sat and watched tv with Raggedy Ann and the world was good again!!  I'm not trying to say I never think about that episode in my life......I have plenty of times!! But the trauma was never that bad again.......Why did Humpty Dumpty sit on a wall??? Because thats where he fit!!!