Run, Lola, Run!!

Now its only April and the family reunion on Molokai was scheduled for August!!  Would I be able to contain myself till then? I went to work and everyone I worked with was so happy for me......I had not realized in my fixation to find out about my own father......how many of my peers also did not know their biological fathers also!! I was amazed that some had not ever tried to find them.  Even more amazed cause some of them were not much younger than me. Well I was ab...

Easter took on a new meaning for me in 2011!  Two weeks before Easter I received an email from my niece in Hawaii........she sent me a little one inch personals ad she found in her local newspaper.....it said " Dudoit Family Reunion to be held on Molokai".  Johnette told me, "aunty I don't know if the name is spelled correctly but it looked right".  My heart skipped a beat.......would my father be there?? Is he still alive?? At the end of the announcement there w...

I'm not sure if I mentioned this before but I am the oldest of 10 yep you read that right!! Ten siblings.........theres, Cathy, Woody Jr, Colleen, Robin, Wayde, Wendall, Laurie, Wes and last but not least........theres the baby JULIE! This morning after reading my blog I got a message from my sister Julie.......so everyone please just be patient with me........I need to stop my story long enough to tell Julie how much I love her and how thankful I am tha...

Thanksgiving was wonderful !! Now we are into December and Christmas means the girls come home!!  Here we go again.........DRAMA!!  I spent the month getting ready for Christmas and poor Dan, he tried so hard to make this easy for me........but my apprehension I'm afraid could not be hidden! On top of the girls coming home and seeing me in their mothers home for the first time, I find out that their mothers best friend and her family come for Chritstmas also!! Ok........

Well we're back from Hawaii, its late October and I find out that traditionally Thanksgiving is done at one of the girls homes in Oakland..........okie dokie then.........Stress! I have not seen them since I met them in January, have talked on the phone a few times and on the internet........but all of a sudden I am like a duck outta water!!!

Now anyone who knows me, knows I'm not afraid of much........but these thr...

..........in my beautiful balloon!! " I hummed it everytime I got on a plane and it was taking off! Kinda took my mind off of being afraid of flying......so, we were off to Dan's Peace Corp reunion in Hawaii!!  It was being held on the Island of Molokai.......but I didn't tell Dan till we were up in the air......that my biological father was from this island and I spent most of my life dreaming of someday going there and hopefully finding out where he was from.  The o...

From January to December is a looooong time!! It had been a very long time since I have had to make such difficult choices in my daily life.  For years its been a given that I would work a double shift everyday......two overtime shifts on Saturday and usually one on Sunday (so I could do laundry!! lol) and neither I or the staffing office every doubted that I would be available for these! All of a sudden I wanted to spend more time with Dan on the weekends.....so I had to ...

You know, only an idiot would date and fall into a relationship with a man who 1) lost a wife after 39 years of marriage and 2) has three grown daughters who have no clue that you exist!! Oh yeah.......that would be me!!! lol   I continued for over a year to come over to Arroyo Grande for weekends making sure every week that he be positive that his daughters would not be popping in.......that scared me to death !! I did so want to meet them but not here at his house.&...

Once again I sit alone!!  It was my choice......but I'm here to tell you that divorce, regardless of whose idea it is.......sucks!! The pain is just as real on both ends.  This time I meant it.......I refuse to get involved EVER again!!

So double shifts took over my life.  I loved the people I worked with at the hospital......I also loved that besides my regular position in Radi...

Well at 38 years of age.......there I sat! One failed marriage behind me, weighing in at about 350 pounds!! A very spoiled teenage daughter (her twin brother moved out with his father) who was just dangling on my last nerve most of the time! No job, I had spent ten years at SunMaid Raisins and then my then husband said he thought I should quit my job and stay at home again. The kids were teenagers and he worked into the night at times and I worked swing shift.......I do have to...